When RA talked I didn’t listen.
When RA talked I didn’t Listen….when it SCREAMED I had no choice. I failed at my day. I’ll admit I am disappointed in myself. I have to give myself grace but I’m still not happy with myself.
How it started
Two days ago I was tired but I have goals with my fitness. I decided to go for a walk in this nice little area not too far from our house. My husband was going for a jog and I would just go for a walk is what I told myself.
Ya know be easy on my body but it was just too tempting seeing him jog off. I said oh I’ll just jog with him for a minute to get my heart rate up. That minute turned into 1 mile. I stopped at that point and just finished with a fast walk (14-minute mile) knowing I had done too much because my hips were screaming at me.
The consequences of not listening to my body
I slept A LOT. I mean oh so much….12 hours. I woke up exhausted and realized I had slept through two phone calls with my phone turned all the way up and 6″ from my head, my sons Dr needing to speak to me. Today after sleeping 13 hours I realized I slept through my daughter’s gastro appointment that I have waited 6 weeks to get into.
The exhaustion is like no other. It’s hard to even breathe on days like today.
Driven to the core
I am driven to the core. I push myself. Sometimes it is a great thing. It has kept me from letting RA take me down. Then there are times when I don’t listen to my gut and I just got too far, those are the times I fail myself and my family.
Alright RA you won
I learned from my RA this time. Slow down and listen when it’s talking. Life is beautiful and I am grateful to be alive.
